I am officially counting down the days until surgery!( 24) I am equal parts excited and terrified. Nightly, my anxiety flares and attacks me once I lay in bed. I have come to realize I’m having the same Groundhog Day like discussion with my husband. It goes something like this...
Me: I’m really scared, am I making a bad choice?
Him: no sweetie, I don’t think you realize how much of a quality of life change this will be for you!
Me: but what if I die?
Him: you’ve been put under before and been fine
Me: what if I wake up during it?
Him: that’s why anesthetiologists get paid a lot of money. They know what they are doing
Me: what if I have an unknown heart condition or my body goes into shock
Him: again, you’ve been put under before
Me: true... but what if I get super depressed from resting for weeks after
Him: you have lots of Netflix and it’s only temporary rest for a lifelong benefit
Me: you’re right, I should focus on the positive like wearing swimsuits that don’t cut into my neck and fitting in the lazy river tube without being suffocated this summer!
So, that conversation happens nightly. My sweet husband is very good at being positive when I’m scared. I am in prep mode, I follow a Facebook group of others getting breast reductions and it’s been a wellspring of knowledge and tips. I skip past the complications and frankenboob photos for now.
So far we determined We will move the recliner upstairs to our bedroom for recovery. The first two weeks I need to be slightly elevated to sleep while my stitches heal. I bought a v shaped pillow to use that was highly recommended and three pairs of the comfiest target pjs that button in front. That will be my uniform while I heal. I have three front closures sports bras and one I just got at Walmart per my group. The girl took a before photo trying it on and barely clasping it and then after fitting perfectly. So I will be doing the same thing! There’s some fun ideas for before and after that don’t involve bare breasts lol.
I want to get my bedroom painted before surgery since I will be living there and it’s dark grey now. I tend to be affected by colors so we bought a nice spa like color we had in the old house to get me in my happy place. Now I just need to get that done and prep food and kids rides. I won’t be able to drive for at least ten days and I cannot reach up or lift more than 5 lbs for about a month- 6 weeks.
I go to my pre op appt in a week and I plan to have lots of questions and I will get all my post care plans and meds. I’m debating getting a mini fridge or a cooler for my room so I don’t have to use the stairs when I’m home alone. I did take the month of February off at my p/t job of baby watching.
It’s starting to get really real! I’ll need all the support and check ins I can get. Thanks for following I’ll be posting more in the upcoming weeks I’m sure!
Raych
πππππWhen I read how supportive ur hubby is with all of this it makes me tear up. ππππ
ReplyDeleteYou sound like youre doing well with the planning! Did you really have time to paint your room?! Much prayers and love! ππ